Fighting anxiety tonight. It would be a panic attack except for the Klonopin 1mg I took earlier. When my Lexapro 10mg (SSRI) kicks in it will be bitter sweet. Goodbye panic attacks, depression and shyness, hello frustration, emotional numbness and rage issues. Not to mention my drinking problem will arise again. I wish there were a separate subforum for coping with being on an SSRI. It's so difficult. What this stuff does to my consciousness is barbaric. I can be such a shy, gentle, sweet guy, but put me on an anti depressant and I'm a confident, irritable, machine, who reaches for alcohol so that I can feel some kind of emotion.

When my doctor said I had to go back up to 10mg I cried on my drive home. That's how bad I hate this stuff.