do you have many female friends or are your friends mostly guys?

i ask because... most of my friends are guys.

had a not so good relationship with my mother... i guess i tend to experience women as kind of comparing themselves to me and so there is a 'better than in this respect' 'worse than in this respect' kind of comparison dynamic going on which makes things feel a little uncomfortable. i don't know... i'm sure it is partly about me and partly about them but i just don't seem to get along with girls all that well...

i find the dynamic with guys to be different, however. feel more relaxed around them and find them to be more easygoing and accepting and not comparative / *****y. i guess... they tend to take on fatherly roles (so i feel looked out for, protected, nurtured) or a brotherly role or sometimes there is an erotic kind of attachment / attraction too. anyway... that kind of dynamic helps me feel comfortable in their presence and supported and cared about and stuff.

i guess i'm wondering whether you might have similar male / female dynamics operating in your life???

i think pinksoil is right that he is trying to get a sense of your patterns.