Why cant i just go into my bedroom with the lights out 24/7 and stay in bed for as long as i want too with no one to yell at me or scream at me or push me to get up....just maybe someone nice to visit me once in awhile to tell me they love me.....i need rest.....i need sleep....im feeling so....exhausted. i just want to break down. I am so tired of being the role model. i am so tired of being the strong one. I am so tired of putting up a face. i just want to collapse.