Direction, in all honesty I believe I've been lying to myself. If I wanted therapy, REALLY wanted it, then I'm sure that I could achieve that somehow. I think I'm just being my stubborn self, because I rarely ask for help. I guess I want to do this alone, but not completely "alone"..if that makes any sense..

Ugh, I'm not even sure what else to say. I confuse myself. Those peas and carrots are all i've had today and I feel like I will get sick if i try to eat anything else today.

thank you guys SO much for "talking" with me. Perhaps your voices here will help that little voice in me rise up somewhat