warning this is long but i felt i needed to provide background info...

ok so i've always been more sensitive to noise and smells than other people for as long as i can remember but it has never really been a problem. but in the last year or 2 it has gotten a LOT worse and now to the point of being debilitating. the smell sensitivity is not really a problem, just annoying but its the noise that has become untollarable (???) and now i am also sensitive to light and cold, which i never used to be

i had to buy blackout curtains and have blinds and these curtains shut all the time (unless its cloudy/raining etc) but if its bright sunny it still leaks around the edges and i can hardly see other things mainly tv/computer screens etc and it makes me frustrated. the cold makes winter unbearable, i feel like i have no heat inside me. i have lots of layers of thick clothes and STILL cold most of the time and been bundled up like this annoys me. also have heating on a lot and i really cant afford it. again i was never like this until around 2 years ago

but the thing thats really getting me down is the noise. ok before i go any further i have to mention that i am dole scum (on jobseekers allowance) and have been for the past 10 years. everyone hates me for it and i accept this so if this bothers you then please stop reading now. but anyway unlike most dole scum who enjoy it because to them its an easy life (something i really cant get my head around) for me it is absolute hell

apart from the lack of money for everything i need to pay for and always struggling to pay bills etc (and i know thats my fault for buy so much pointless crap in the past w/o thinking about the consequences) there is a lot more to it. also the abuse doesnt affect me now, im used to that i accept it, i also accept that i cant afford a lot of things and have to buy low quality things most of the time including supermarket value brans for pretty much all my food, so all that doesnt bother me. i also accept that i can only rent from council and that means i have to be surround by those other dole scum but the different sort, the type that are always drunk, high on drugs, violent and make as much noise as possible all day and night. they dont seem to sleep much if at all and they rarely go out and when they do its random and sometimes not very long... again i know that is what everyone else does

so heres the problem... i cannot tollerate this noise anymore. when i 1st moved here 8 years ago i could, i hated it, but it was only the really loud noise that bothered me back then like the thundering bass, actually that was all. the lower noises i could mentally block out (usually) when i was watching something or playing games or whatever. (by lower noises i mean there tv or banging around slamming doors and throwing stuff or whatever it is they do all the time). if it got too bad then i'd stop trying to do whatever i was doing and either use music or white noise to drown it out and do something i didnt need to hear. if it was stopping me from sleeping then id give up and stay awake and i could, id eventually sleep whenever they eventually did. and tbh i dont think it was THAT bad back then anyway. but the main point is for the most part i could deal with it, it never really affected me like its doing now

im not sure what changed i think i just developed an intollerance to it as it seemed to get worse gradually (the light and cold problems increased with it, actually the cold 1 seemed to come out of nowhere). also i should point out that im sure all these things are connected. i find it unlikely i have something like noise intollerance and light intollerance and something like raynauds all at the same time, esp when they've all got worse together (i did get put on raynauds tablets at 1 point and it made no difference). but anyway now for the cold i cant go outside in winter and if i need to then i can barely walk, i can barely even move, the light is probably a minor problem, but the noise well thats had a very detrimental effect on my overall health (physical and mental). which really sucks because i actually try to be healthy (exercise, eating, not smoking/drinking etc) but its all pointless because this takes over

i have been in a constant state of sleep deprivation for well over a year now and up to now i've managed to hide it. ive managed to get by on what sleep i could, the stress of having to deal with noise is also unbearable. all the things the sleep deprivation cause are also unbearable. i have no energy, i cant think straight, i make mistakes all the time because i cant concentrate, i forget everything, i feel like pure crap ALL the time, when i do sleep i wake up feeling like ive been hit by a truck no matter how much sleep i got. im extremely irritable and have no pateince or attention span at all. i snap at people over silly little things, i blow things out of proportion and only realise later how stupid i was, every little thing annoys me, like my hair touching my face/neck etc, even stupid things like that are enough to send me into a rage

now i spend all day with white noise blasting in my ears and sometimes even that doesnt block it out. i mostly give up watching stuff because i cant hear it because the racket seems to over power it no matter how loud i turn it up. i sometimes do when they are out, it seems like it has to be perfectly quiet. as for sleep i obv have to fit my sleeping pattern around theres which is very unatural (and short lived) and is a problem if i have to go out at normal times. and this what im dreading next week...

i have to sign on at 9.10 which means i would have to get up and get ready no later than 7 to get out on time. and that is just impossible if i can only get about 3 hours of sleep. it is possible i could get 4 hours but there is NO WAY i could get up. i have serious problems getting up because i am SO LAZY, i wake up feeling awful and can barely move and i feel worse when i try to get up, so i always get up late because it takes me ages to fully wake up properly. 4 hours isnt really enough (especially since i have to do that every night) so my only choice is to stay up all night so that im already awake for when i need to go out. now ive done this before, staying up like this and i managed, it just takes a lot of planning because i have to keep eating a lot rhough the night to stay awake but i can do it, the only peopnlem is the next day i always feel half dead for a few hours in the morning, around the time when ill be out so thats going to be a night mare but i suppose ill have to deal with it

ok so my question is... is there anyway to beat this over-sensitivity and be normal again? is there anyway to reduce it so i can deal with it like i used to? anything. i mean im so desperate now id consider ever taking meds (i hate meds with a passion) but then i hate this feeling even more. i just want to be able to do what i want/need when i want/need. now i know i am dole scum and this is what i deserve and maybe this is what im meant to go through. or maybe im meant to fix myself? since i didnt have this problem in the past. also now its not just there noise that irritates me but other things. like lawnmowers... in the summer the council are cutting the grass (twice a week i think) and its unbearable, now the council have been riding lawnmowers around all my entire life and it has never bothered me. also some other minor noises bother me like the fridge and other silly things that really shouldnt

please dont suggest things to block out the noise like i already use earplugs etc, soundproofing isnt an option (cant afford it) and moving is even LESS of an option. i know that nothing will block it out and its me that has the problem and that is what i want fixed. also been on the dole i have to be fit for work which i am definitley not but i have to try to fake it to them because i need the money for food/bills and have no other way of getting money but i wonder how long i can go on. obviously im going to look like a complete wreck on thursday but if they say anything ill just say i think im getting a cold which would be believable at this time of year. last year when i went they said i looked sick and i just said i was fine. also i know they are going to send me on some course sometime, they always do and its been a while since the last 1 (about this time last year) and i cant be staying up all night every night to get out and there on time. i have no idea what i could do there...

so i NEED to do something about it. i know its only going to get worse and worse and i cant take it anymore. i am a complete wreck all the time, not just look like it. i cant do anything. so please is there anything i can do to increase my tollerence of noise (and cold and light if thats possible but its mainly the noise) i realy need to do something about this before it gets any worse (i always say i dont think it could get any worse then it always does). most noises dont bother me (ive looked into hypercasus and it seems everyone cant stand people chewing or whatever but that doesnt bother me at all, in fact i dont even notice the sound of other people chewing or slopping there food. its mainly bass and loud thuds that rattle through the ceiling. nothing drowns it out and i cant drown it out mentaly anymore. i just want to be normal!

so does anyone else have this problem and know how to treat it? is there any meds that will fix this? anything. honestly like i said im desperate now...

p.s also i am not insomiac i used to be able to sleep ok mostly, now its noise keeping me awake and even when it does go quiet im still highly strung from all the stress an anxiety it caused when i was going on