Hi everyone.

Well, in the never ending saga that is my relationship with my therapist, i once again feel out of sorts about the process. Namely, that there doesn't appear to be a process.

So far, it seems like it has been a huge waste of money, and I think that's why I'm afraid to cut my losses and stop working with her and accept that it was just a waste of money.

My background is one of trauma and abuse, as well as sexual abuse which is something I am only just dealing with now. This all went on for years past the age of 18, (the sexual abuse was a childhood situation though)

My situation is hard to explain briefly but basically I got trapped there going on and off medications which I didnt need and which made things a lot worse, and I literally had no life/no friends/no job

I am finally away at age 26 and in therapy. However, I just don't get it. She seems to be very present focused and skills based.. She says I have post traumatic stress symptoms, but there is no structure to the therapy really. I have spoken about this to her before. but it still seems that way. I don't really know where it's going, but I'm not sure whether I am meant to.

I feel a need to talk about what happened, because I am permanently bewildered by it with intrusive memories. I feel I need a narrative to have a sense of self and not feel like empty nothingness because my life has been empty nothingness.

Am i wrong to think I need to work with my past? Therapy is so present focused, but my mind is locked in a deeply confusing past. This is where I originally wrote about my situation: http://forums.psychcentral.com/survi...eful-help.html

I am not sure if it is me.After all, I guess I am a traumatised person, and there is therefore no guarantee that I am coming at this from the right angle.

What do you make of this?

Thankyou

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