PeaceLily,

I could have written most of your post myself.

I can't say what your T has in mind for you, but here is what I am experiencing.

I am 59 and I have seen my T for one year. I had a curious expectation that once I told her all of my history that there would be some sort of cathartic trauma therapy that would help me feel better and more functional.

Two weeks ago she introduced mindfulness and breathing exercises. I am afraid I flipped out a little because I couldn't understand how breathing exercises are supposed to get me to that cathartic moment I was expecting. Then I realized there is no cathartic trauma moment..she had never promised this to me. I realized the idea came from me. Now I am feeling confused and hopeless. I'm mad at myself for having such a stupid expectation. I dont think I'll ever feel better.

Like with your T, there doesn't seem to be any plan or goals. We have had a discussion about this and she assures me that the exercises she is suggesting will lead us to trauma...and to me feeling better.

We are still trying to figure this out. T has said if anyone here has had success with a trauma workbook, or suggestions, we could look at them...

Have you asked your T if she is done examining your past?