More of the same. Bad memories that come back and steal the joy of the present. I need to forgive my husband for treating me very critically in past. He is trying harder now but these bad pictures come back. I try to fight these bad memories but it just makes it worse. I feel like talking to my husband will only rob him of joy and make him feel badly like I do. He is sorry. He is trying to do better. This pain though seems to be deep in me. I need to forgive him and me. I get upset with myself for remembering. These things are making me physically ill.