I don't think I've ever been normal. I've always been abused for as long as I can remember. The sexual abuse started at age 5. I was always neglected, phycacilly and verbally abused.... I never feel safe, even around my husband. He's an Angel and has put up with a lot of my crap and insecurities. I had a major break down, tried taking my life, and I just keep on going. Always afraid. Always praying I won't wake up tomorrow. I'm also bi-polar II. I went wacky a month ago and lost a lot of face book friends. My true friends understood what was going on and stood by me. I apologized and we all started fresh. I have a mental breakdown.... Now am back to my normal bi-polar self. Still scared and insecure. For me that's normal....