I am 38, and going through sadness over having no kids. I divorced at 34 after 14 years. We were planning to try for a baby that year, but obviously that didn't happen. The marriage ended for complicated reasons, but a lot of it had to do with both of our mental health issues. Since then i've dated lots, but no real connection, and time is running out. I don't feel that i could do it totally on my own, so haven't looked into donors, and i don't know if i would be eligible for adoption because of psych history, even though i'm well and have a good job.

Anyways, i feel like my illness is a big part of why this happened. I was pretty unwell in my early 20s, then recovering and going to school in later 20s, then unwell again in early 30s, then divorced, and now here. I'm not really bitter, just sad that this is how things have turned out. I have lots of good things in my life, so i am very lucky, but i still feel a lot of missed opportunities. Just kind of grieving for what could have been