Ok... so I'm out of the hospital... on 150 Trazodone and 40 Celexa... the doctors, in their infinite wisdom, did not put me back on a stabilizer. Already, I'm having trouble sleeping on the Trazodone, which says a lot being that I weigh like 115 soaking wet. Then, I can't stay asleep on account of the dreams... and nightmares. I feel like a rat in a cage... can't sit still, my mind is like an old school air popcorn popper. Can't hold a thought to save my life. Don't get in to the p-doc til June 19. It's like they are discrediting the diagnosis of bipolar because it was given by a family doc... I had past doctors ready to give the same diagnosis, only I always bolted before they could give it. Past history... I go on an anti-depressant, and eventually, I feel better... REALLY damn good... I go off and I barely sleep and all that good stuff, and it carries me along for awhile, but then, whack, I crash so fast, so hard, I end up sobbing in the doctors office or I check myself in. Should I get the records from the other p-docs and my other hospitalizations and march in there with them? I'm scared.