i have that same problem really bad.

i get mad over stupid things and when my boyfriend is ready to go or i kick him out, i run after him as soon as he walks out the door and i'm all "wait wait wait! i was just kidding come back!"

it won't take much more for me to push him completely out of my life, i'm afraid.

you'll trust people when you're ready. i think the more you try forcing yourself into being a person capable of sincerely trusting others, the more you'll doubt yourself and your relationships anyway, and it'll take longer to get the results you want. and i think it also makes it harder to trust as time goes on also.

that's how i am anyway.