(((((((((mouse)))))))))

i can relate to your pain and discomfort.

everything that happens to me sometimes turns out to feel like it is my fault and that people just need to abandon me because i've done something wrong.

others have told me to keep myself busy, or journal, or something. sometimes I get busy getting angry at the world and say "forget them" .... but then it get turned around and I get angry at myself.

hmm....i don't know if i have much help. it seems to come down to somehow figuring out a way to be confident in that what your T says to you is accurate and it isn't about you.

the world in a complicated place (how cliche of me to say that). and lives are so complicated within it and the forces that come together to make people act how they do are rarely, if ever, just one thing so how your therapist acts or what your therapist needs is part of that intricate web of things that come together to make her what she is. so things that happened years and years ago may play into why she needs to take a break. and perhaps her taking a break is good for you, for is she is revitalized she is better able to help you revitalize yourself.

these are just thoughts and i don't know if they have any meaning...but anyway ((((((((((((((((((((mouse))))))))))))))))))))