well see, before i found out, we spent all of our free time together. the night he went to his cousin's wasn't a huge deal - or it really shouldn't have been. i just expected him to come home and spend some time with me 'cuz i now work all day on saturdays (we used to have the same days off together - tuesdays & saturdays, but now oonly tuesdays).

i blew it out of proportion without really meaning to and the next day he was all "i can't handle a new baby right now" 'cuz of the way i got over the weekend. he already has a 4 yr. old daughter with someone else.

i tried explaining to him that alot of it i can't help 'cuz it's hormones and all he says is "oh you're just making up an excuse, blaming it on the baby."

i was trying to be nice to him and apologize and stay calm, but he was just being mean about it and saying "yeah, you're always sorry" and then got mad 'cuz i got upset and started crying.

so then i got more wound up and he didn't wanna talk to me anymore, which wound me up more. i lost it then and wanted to bother him some more and talk, but i managed to calm myself down somehow and am leaving him alone so that he can cool off.