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Originally Posted by Curiosity77
What you are going through is really hard. I went through a similar situation 3 years ago. I had built a really good life for myself, and it all got ripped apart by a severe episode. I had to build things back, and i've done that for the most part, but it was a long and difficult process. I was 34 at the time. I can relate to the feeling of lost time, lost self image, and changed friendships. Some of that remains, but i feel better about myself now, and most of my friendships are back to normal, although some will never be. My life has had several periods of building up, and burning down because of this illness. I'm really hoping that was the last time. Anyways , hang in there, things will improve.
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It is SO HARD. I'm glad you're feeling better about yourself. It seems that is key in successfully moving forward. For me that means taking satisfaction in what I do, being cheerful, happy, genuine, empathetic, and being responsible for myself and my life. To regain all of this is going to take time. I really can't afford to 'trip' up again. I hVe just found it so difficult to communicate well especially socially with others. I feel boring, and pathetic. I miss being genuinely chipper and excited. Ultimately use of time is the only thing that can evolve my life right now. I'm learning with a laser sharp self awareness that needs to be toned down sometimes so that I can just get through a day without so many self defeating emotions. I know moving will be a huge catalyst in feeling freedom, ,individuality and independence again. This has been an epic struggle, and my main goal is some peace of mind so that I can stay focused on what I need to in order to be happy and make others happy around me. I miss making other peoples days better just because I was able to do that with my personality and morals/standards. It's tough getting past fear and embarrassment but I can't be trapped in my own prison.
Anyway, I hope it was the last time for you too! Thanks so much. I know things will.