I just wanted to say I can relate and empathize with you.

I come from a family of workaholics and my husband is a workaholic. I've been searching for a job but am deathly afraid to work due to my lingering depression and anxiety. I got a volunteering "job" 2 days a week for 3 hours and am apprehensive about starting that even!

Sorry I don't have any advice. Just wishing you the best.