...that is how it feels to be me...all of the time...
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...and it feels like if I were to disappear completely no one would notice either way because I was never there in the first place.

i am very lonely and isolated and hopeless and I am abandoned, by myself and the world and those who claim to care for me....

....and i'm sure it is something that i'm doing wrong, either something wrong with me that makes the world abandon me or simply because my mind is so messed up that i have created this for myself and this is all in my head....or it is some of both. either way....it is my fault i'm alone.