I would look at it as, the universe just handed you a present. You went looking, and the universe rewarded you for your effort. Thats how it works, imo. Thats how you know youre doing the right thing, when the universe responds like that. Look at all the stuff this situation is bringing up for you - its a psycholohical gold mine. It doesnt come from nowhere - that is unprocessed stuff inside of you. Is it earth-shattering, the most important shite in the world? Who cares?? Start where you are.