To have good mental health, I'm supposed to accept who I am, but the person I am -- lazy, irresponsible, no control over her emotions, embarrassing, ugly, stupid -- is so unlikeable that I cannot accept her.

Throughout my childhood, people have let me know how unlikeable I was (and probably still am.) It would be a mistake to like myself for being irresponsible and annoying if I'm making other people's lives miserable with my stupidity.

I've tried changing, but it isn't working. I keep screwing up and hating myself more.