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Originally Posted by Angry1541
I struggle with this a lot....some days it takes all my willpower to not just explode and I know what I am about explode about is my problem, not whomever is triggering me. But once it pops no holds are barred...it's all out verbal warfare and I aim to win, at all costs...I will say the most hurtful and directly pointed thing just to hurt that person, before gabapentin I would have this happen for a few days straight. Just pure rage.
Afterwards my wife (most often my target) will sit with me and we will work out that most everything I spouted off were things that I was not dealing with well myself....almost word for word.
and then it's gone just like that and I slip into depress or hypo state.
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This is my most frequent experience in the past year. I usually go into an intense rage and literally follow around my target, berating them with my feelings, until it becomes a terrible situation.
I think it's wonderful that your wife is able to separate herself from your rages and help you through them. I find, more often than not, I slip into an intense depressive state after these times because I feel very badly for having raged and without a way to make my target understand why it happened and how sorry I am that it did.