Interestingly enough my Mom and I had another blow-up last night, almost exactly one month from the last one we had. Nothing that escalated for hours on end, but enough that it got my blood boiling to get me out of my funk.

My Mom had purchased me some new clothes a few months back, including new swim shorts. They've been sitting in the bag for several weeks, and last night she said she has to take them back already, and that I need to try them. First of all, as much as I appreciate her thinking of me and doing that sort of thing, but I'm fully capable of buying my own clothes. I've told her that several times, but all it does is upset her. But anyways, last night, when it came time to the swim trunks, I told her I don't need those, it's not as if I'm ever going back to the pool again. So we started our dance of yelling at each other. She's telling me that there are other pools, and I responded with, I shouldn't have to go to another pool.

I told her things like I went to the same pool with the same people for seven years, and the second I meet a girl there, her head explodes. She went on to tell me things that my ex-GF just doesn't sit right with her, she can't explain it, and that she just doesn't like her. I told her it shouldn't matter, it's not her choice, it's mine, and she had no right to make me end a relationship I had no intentions of ending. She went on as she does, telling me that what I do is a reflection on her.

Then we got into finances, and she pretty much told me that I can't afford to be dating anyone. This was her same statement she gave me when I got home from my very first date with my ex back in August. And I agreed with her, finances are tight, but that should be no reason not to pursue a relationship.

She continued that I lied to her, and I lost it. I swore, a lot, and told her to get this idea of lying out of her head. Nobody lied to her, I just didn't tell her my intentions of going out with this girl in weeks prior to us actually starting to date, which is what she's referring to. And that's simply because I didn't know where it was going, it just started happening. I didn't know I was going to be full on dating this girl a month before we actually started to.

I told her she's being emotionally selfish, manipulating, using threats and blackmail against me, all because I decided to pursue a girl and start dating. That she's not treating my like an adult, and that she has ever classic symptom of a controlling parent. I then proceeded to tell her that if this is what she wants, I won't see anyone ever again. Not only by her choice, but the fact I've had it hard with my self esteem and confidence my entire life, that this just messed me up a whole bunch more because of her attitude. I also told that if by some miracle I ever did date someone again, she'll never meet that person and that she's lost that privilege after all of this. Her response, thanks a lot, I've got no reason to live then.

It pretty much ended with her saying that we are both at fault for all of this, even though I still don't understand what I did so wrong exactly. She said that no one understands our financial situation amongst many other things, but I responded that my close friends do know what's going on, and they see her as completely in the wrong for this whole scenario. She pretty much said thanks a lot, and that's she's disappointed in my friends.

I'm sure there are a few other points I've missed, but this pretty much is the gist of it. Just another day in my household living with my Mom.