Like someone said, if you feel the pressing need, and you also feel a level of trust in the service as a whole, then maybe it is a good idea to offload the details to your T before you do head in to a real crisis?

Maybe you could pre warn the T that you need to do this, because you recognise that you do not want to head into a crisis? Would it be an option to send the T a copy of some of your posts as a way of doing this, and so they could understand where you are at?

I'm sorry it has got to such an overwhelming level and I really hope you can find some relief soon. Take good care of yourself. Kind