In the figurative march forward some people will be the leaders and others followers.

If you want to make a change, make a difference, raise awareness, then know that doing so at the work place isn't the only venue. You don't have to hide or lie, but you could participate in community events, groups etc. so that the wall you are pressing against isn't the one that butters your bread.

Perhaps you could explore with your pdoc why your motivation is to make your stand at your place of work. Unresolved feelings against the scrutiny? Because of what happened in your late teens early twenties? Ask the question - who are you trying to prove your worth to?

I personally am not ever wanting to knock down walls of ignorance, but prefer to stay in the shadows and watch others make things happen except when I take on small changes where I see a need.

I have known strong souls like yourself who are game changers and admire that. I wish you the best of luck in whatever you decide to do.