Update 1/20/2015
Thank you to those nice words and messages everyone. I did it. I forced myself to bed and actually got up. I thought this was going to be breeze. Not exactly. Though anything will take getting used to. With one big check mark on Sunday, I extended my goal through Wednesday.

The mornings and nights are what I would call successful. I wouldn't really put the same descriptor on the days. I've just been sitting around. Yesterday I felt the sensation of being mentally numb. I know this is an area I need to address. Yet, I'm hesitant to. Mostly this is because I don't know how to. Without a doubt I can't set a strict A to B schedule. At least not right now. When I get behind on those types of schedules the whole day seems to collapse, and the schedule is abandoned. I need something small and flexible. I recognize that tv and electronics are a force that just sucks me in. Knowing that, I'm going to try today by not setting a schedule. Today I'm going to have electronic/lazy sessions no longer than 30 minutes at a time. The hard part is being honest and recognizing your own faults.

Thankfully tomorrow, I won't have to worry about doing nothing until I'm numb. My uncle, who has been brain damaged since birth, is getting dental surgery done. He'll need someone to watch him and help him through the anesthesia. My grandmother, who he lives with, is battling a white matter degeneration condition, so as much as she'll try to help someone else in the family will have to step in. Being the most experienced in the realm of care, I'll be spending the day with my uncle.

I know the saying is to take one day at a time. I can't really do that. Honestly, when a hard day is over, the one day at a time approach seems to overwhelm me. I start to worry if the one day will be like the tough today. So I'm going to try an incremental approach to my goal setting. I started with one day. Now I'm moving up to three days. If or when I meet that goal I'll bump my goal perspective up to a week. The key is to live in the today.

Its difficult to follow your own advice sometimes. Ever since high school ended, the majority of my friends have gone off on religious missions or joined the military. To every one I've said the same thing, "You can only fall as far as how high you're willing to climb." I intended this to mean that if you fail, it only is a sign that you have the capacity to achieve. I've fallen many times. At the very least, I know, somewhere inside me, there is that capacity to succeed.

Until next time,
TheyCallMeChimi