You're fine, Thiswayout, You should see some of the mis-statements and spelling I come out with. Being angry takes a lot of energy, too, and I don't feel like working it up even though my relatives did plenty to make a little kid angry. As far as being angry at T is concerned, I can't take too much conflict without terror and dissociation. I did get almost in a rage when she suggested my inner child "could be a little older". I really came out and defended that I need to be whatever age I am in therapy, and skipping over years isn't going to work. Turned out T meant the inner child could escape fears by being older for awhile. Grist for the mill. Anger is very important and is strong protection against fear.