I was attracted to girls by age 12, but didn't realize what it was all about. Coincidentally, the guy I fell in love with at 16 and dated until I was 18 was bi-sexual but wouldn't admit it (he had been caught). I married a man who I dated for 5 years and divorced a year and a half later.

I later lived with a guy (coincidentally same first name as the ex-husband) for about a year.

One day I came to realize that I wanted women, so I put a personal ad in the paper and met a woman who I spent the next 10 years with. I ended the relationship 2 years ago and have not looked for anyone since. In that time I decided to concentrate on my new found sobriety and followed the twelve step rule of no relationships in the first year.

Began feeling very lonely in the last six months and have thought about venturing out. Surprising to me - I started thinking about men again - boy confusing! Not sure at all what I want. I like the emotional closeness of a woman and the protected feeling of a man.

So, now I just call myself an "equal opportunity lover". I've decided I will not look for anything specific and if I end up attracted to a man or woman so be it - whatever happens will be for the right reason.

-Tranquility