Thank you all ... again... different opinions yes that is true, I was feeling better then I went to therapy today... and there was some discussion of going to fast by T and me

.... then (I really hate that I did this), I stopped at store got binge food - cake, candy bars and pop and ate until I passed out... (my eating disorder got outta control)... so now my IBS hurts, my head feels terrible and I am so mad at me for doing this again...
One of these days, I'm not going to wake up...

I'm sorry for being such a big whiner. And I'm sure that everyone will say that I brought it on myself cause I did..
We went thru some horrible memories today - it just never goes away....and one of these days, I'll stop punishing myself..