hi carrdio
just thinking about suicide so much would indicate that something is going on. go back to your school counselor for a few conversations and be honest about your concerns. your counselor can then discuss with your mother the need for services and offer resources that would be available for lower income families. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome