Previous traumatic brain injuries can give a sense of disconnection, at times. Not that testing would necessarily show much if anything? Not sure.
I've had a friend in life, who once described onslaught of their depression at the age of ten, lasting until they'd sought counseling in their twenties. Battle waged, less insurmountable as the years went on. In their thirties, life has meaning and importance.
Just know you aren't alone. Today may seem long, but tomorrow is on the horizon.

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