I don't know what's wrong with me. I can't work. I have been doing part time for the past 8 years, because I have no passions that can equate to a career. I also care so little about working for someone else that my main priority Is to get out on time so I can get to the few things in life that bring me joy when so much of life is made up of work. When I don't get out on time I have intense anxiety.

So I have searched for a career for years, finally landed a job for a non-profit as a grant writer. My supervisor and I didn't get along from day 1. She is a workaholic who is by her own words "never off the clock" whereas I don't even want to think about work when I'm not there. I worked ridiculously hard to make it work, even coming in early so that I could get out in time to get to my class (exercise that I enjoy). The work grind was literally killing me, as I was sick everyday. Eventually I was fired (after only three months) and it was like a huge weight was lifted. Yes, money is a huge problem, I am alone in this town and only have myself to rely on, but I still can't imagine working again. I can't find anything that doesn't sound horrendous at my level (i have a master's in occupational health psychology, quite appropriate but there is nothing in the field that I can do. America's capitalistic society doesn't give a crap about mental health in the workplace). I would just work at a comic book store or something if I could make a life of it abd not feel like a total waste.