Thanks you guys! Candybear and Sunrise, your thoughts are really helpful

Before I left, we talked about exactly what sunrise wrote. Going for a 'tune up' occassionally or just checking in with someone. Part of my concern is not being able to afford it for awhile and starting over with someone completely new after all this. But I could also do a phone session with L once in awhile and might do that if I feel like I need to. I have enough meds to last til fall. We had begun to approach stopping but when I decided to move, left it alone til after the transition and I get settled.
It used to be my first waking thought just about, taking it literally first thing every day. Lately I don't always remember til later in the day. I have a friend who is very into holistic/alternative medicine and one of the things she believes is that the body craves what it needs and doesn't so much when it doesn't. That was from homeopathy and I know that doesn't always agree with conventional medicine but it is interesting.
So my plan now is do the things I know work for me. And not beat myself up for having a regressing day. And if I need to get help, I know how to now and not to wait until I *really* need it.
I'm really glad to hear your stories too, gives me hope I can keep on this way