Hey all,

I have a really hard time figuring out whether or not I'm experience Hypomania as it falls under Bipolar II.

There must have been an episode of it in my life for sure or I wouldn't have been diagnosed.

Thing is...I have no idea when I'm manic...besides really great moods. And I don't see why it's such a problem because it feels wonderful.

Anyway...years ago I was in about a 7 month long state of happiness. I'd just broken up with a crazy ex and was living free of drama. Thing is...I also had thoughts of suicide. How could I be happy but have thoughts of suicide?
My therapist at the time said "that doesn't sound very happy" when I told her that. Anyway...not long after I attempted which was a complete shock to people seeing as how happy I seemed. Winded up in a mental hospital and that's how I got diagnosed.

Another time probably happened over summer. I was beginning a new relationship. Most start off good because you wouldn't get in one if it did not. Thing is...shortly after we began dating, I lost my job. I decided to stay at my house to-not going to lie- have sex with her (lol). Got fired for missing work and not calling in. I also spent quite a bit of money as well. I was living in a new area though so it's hard to see if I was just trying to enjoy it while I was there.

I'm not sure if these times were mania. I just can't seem to recognize it or really understand why it's a problem. I feel like it's awesome because I usually get a lot done. Task after task. Constantly working on things, etc.

Why is it a problem and how can I recognize it?