Hi

Mania and hypomania are 2 different animals love. Hypomania is when I'm feeling good and nothing can get me down. Everything is going to be a o k. I hate to call it a happy buzz, but your having really great moods.

Mania has delusional overtones, such as grandiosity. Compulsive reckless spending. Hallucinations. Hyperactivity. Paranoid delusions. Hyper sexuality. It's not as fun as it sounds. It's all dangerous out of control behavior. I'd rather be hypo.

A mixed state is when one has some symptoms of mania mixed with some symptoms of depression. One is irritable. Angry. Agitated. Chaotic happy. It's not a good state to be in, matter of fact it's quite dangerous. A depressed person would just wish that they were dead. In a mixed state, that person would have the energy to actually do something about it, unfortunately.

Sounds like you touched some manic behavior there at the end, but imagining doing it blindly without restraint. I blew $5k dollar last year on online gaming- ooops. And couldn't tell that I was. I couldn't stop. I use to have sex with everyone, cheated once, and I see things. Manic behavior is more a curse that I can't get rid of. The only hope is the pills that I get to take.

It seems that I only can tell if I'm manic is in hindsight when my meds are tweaked right. I live in the delusion that nothing's wrong. I look at the decisions I made that I'd never make in a million years. Those are the tell tale signs to me.