Well according to my ex, I'm not a good friend. Since the storm my close friends are all spread so far apart and we rarely see each other. It's very depressing, cause we were always together before. This weekend two of them and their kids are coming to spend the weekend at another friends house and we are all expected to be there and party our asses off. Im still suffering with a sore back, swollen knees from sunburn that is painful to walk and trying my hardest to quit drinking. Becuase i wont give him an answer on whether or not im goin yet, he's getting this attitude with me and saying i'm awful not to go and spend the night. I told him that i wont know if im going till i get up tomorrow and start moving around, see how i feel. It really hurts me cause i want to see them very badly. The friends coming from far away are two of my closests friends and one has recently been diagnoxed with 4th stage lymphona. I want badly to see them. I told my ex that if I go it will be for a little while but not to spend the night. He says back to me, im being selfish. Said i should just enjoy myself and have fun, drink or not, who cares. Well, it seems to me he sure the hell dont care. Cause he keeps making me feel quilty for what i feel and say. If i do go he also expects me to drive 30 miles out of my way to go get him and then bring him back home. I just told him, he needs to find another way there. And again I'm being the bad person in that situation. I dont know what to do anymore. I just want to feel better, live happy and enjoy life. I mean, come on, is that to much to ask for?