Im struggling at the moment. In crisis and draining my boyfriend. He cant handle me suicidal but doesnt like me in hospital either cos then he cant see me... Only last night he finally admitted he couldnt handle it anymore and I need professional help.

But Im doing what many bi polar people do and tweeking my meds in the hope I can stay home. Although home is not a nice place at the moment. I cant clean, I've got some food but I dont think I am safe enough to cook. I havent eaten properly since the last time I saw my boyfriend 4 days ago. He said he had important washing to do...