I don't want to fall asleep. I don't even feel tired- it's 2:30 a.m. and I need to wake up at 5:30. I mean, sure sometimes people have these days, but this is an every day thing. It's not that I have horrible nightmares, fear of darkness, or anything of the sort. It's like I dread each new day- I fear that if I fall asleep, then I will wake and have to live again. For me, days are not determined by hours or the sun. It's by my sleep schedule, which is slightly different every day. It's been getting ridiculous though: I've been getting about 3 hours of sleep a day on average, and I'm a teenage high school student that should probably be getting more. By the middle of the day, I'm so tired. Of course the simple solution would just be to go to bed, but there's always this thought- "I'd rather die than wake up in the morning." Of course, staying awake will never solve anything. I know that... But even then, I just can't.