I'm hoping the bipolar is not really happening. That the mood thing could truly be part of my PTSD.
I'm trying to accept it slowly, but it has truly changed everything. Which makes it seem utterly catastrophic. And to some thoughts and ideas it is. Like I'll never have a biological child. I'll never be able to spend a year in another country (without some major medical insurance). I'm glad it's treatable, but I wish it was one that could be treated in treatment cycles and would go into true remission. But it's not. I have to accept that.