I've been in a long distance relationship for seven years that I think finally may be ending. We've always argued but this time he told me not to come and visit despite the ticket being bought to 'teach me a lesson' regarding something he was unhappy about. He feels like I'm being unreasonable and I feel my sacrifices are being completely unappreciated. I've always had to do all of the traveling due to circumstances and it's taken a huge toll on my life.

Yet since he was very unhappy with our argument I'm told not to write to him and if I call he won't answer the phone. It's all rather devastating at this point but this is the kind of relationship that is extremely hard to leave. I still love him, but feel like this is finally too much.

If I do end it that will be terribly, horribly painful and difficult, but because he wasn't happy with my attitude about something I'm being thrown out and blackballed. The insults he hurled at me were intentionally painful. To know he wouldn't answer the phone and he's 'teaching me a lesson' may finally make this relationship, which is so hard to maintain, not worth having.

Sorry for the long post. This is just such a devastating time for me and I'm very much in need of support. He's always been my support but won't be anymore. Finding a way to go on and replace that, as well as all of the wonderful times we had, is unfathomable, but may be unavoidable.