Yeah, I was born...

Looking back on my life, there were so many extreme highs and even more extreme lows. That fit just about every single symptom off 'the' list. It's amazing I made it thru my teens & 20's alive. I don't even know where to place a finger on when it 'began'...

But the official Diagnosis came just a few years ago. I had a complete mental blowout, which turned into talking to the special doctors. They determined I was bipolar from what I told them about my life and my current issues at the time. I hid nothing and was very, very honest with them... more than I have ever been with ANY other person.

I had just checked an item off the top of my bucket list, that took me almost 2 years to accomplish and was on top of the world (pretty major mania). Less than two months later I came the closest I've ever been to ending things. Not even my family knows how bad a place I was really at. I was overwhelmed with stress and rage from work, financial issues, family issues, community activities and a pretty extreme neighbor problem that had been going on for years. Basically everybody else was 'the' problem... except me right? Everybody has problems with these to some level... but I was so far beyond 'normal' and at the point of not being able to function anymore.