((( Direction )))
I do understand not wanting to be home, alone.
I used to fall apart the minute I closed the door when I got home.
I hated/was afraid being out, at work or anywhere. And I hated/was afraid being home. And I felt incapable of being alone, of taking care of myself (even though the whole time I was falling apart over this I actually was taking care of myself. lol).
We'll keep you company here whenever you can be here, so you won't have to be alone!

Do you have a library close by where you could go to be on-line?