When i was a child i had 2 baby brothers that died when i was about 6or7 years old. i often wonder if maybe that could be the reason for alot of my mental problems. i watched my brothers die, one in a crib that we all kissed goodbye and another that died in his crib from a hole in his heart, i witnessed my father trying to do CPR on him. I don't remember much else but i know it left a hole in my own heart too, because i can feel it. Any thoughts?