Thanks, yes, you're right. Maybe I should have titled my thread "Normal people don't care about the details." But, yes, OK, I have accepted my condition, the thing that just gets me is how people who are "normal" just say "Ah, whatever, autism, psychopathy, what's the difference? All those people are nuts and belong in a nut-house." And, that's literally the vibe I get from people. One just wishes they had a bit more finesse and a bit more understanding. You don't use a sledgehammer for knocking in small nails or when using thumb-tacs/drawing pins. It's that mentality of "ALL snakes should be killed because SOME are venomous." Maybe it's the age-group of people (younger folk, perhaps more ignorant), but, I truly have experienced this to be the viewpoint of all those not suffering with mental health issues where I come from. I try to be as understanding and accommodating as I can, but I don't like being accused of or labelled as something I am not. It's all well and good to say "well, screw their opinions", but, as I've mentioned once before, the normal people hold all the cards. If I don't play their game - I don't get ANYTHING right, I'm OUT, TOTALLY OUT. They have no problem cutting a guy like me out of the fray. They don't need me, I need them. That is and always will be the plight of the autist. They created the world as it is, and they rule it. I have to fit in with their expectations, otherwise I might as well go crawl under a rock and never come out again. And that's hard, when you don't have a clue what you're doing and somehow you HAVE to make it all work.

Our cases are actually rather different. In your case, the people actually cared and were supportive (tried to help). Here where I am, people go out of their way to avoid me, and when I do get their attention, my shortcomings and faults are always thrown in my face. It's almost like that type of ignorance-consequent-discrimination type of thing that happened in the 70's or 80's in the USA, before people understood mental illnesses, those years when people were just "crazy" or "normal" and people like me who spent more time on their own doing things in their room were "weird" because they don't seem to want to socialize with the others. People here are extremely ignorant. I don't even want to go into the stupid assumptions people made about me for just being smart in school for example. As a small taster, imaging trying to talk to a group of peers your own age, and they all, with a glimmer of mockery in their eyes ask you "what are you studying?" and someone shouts from the back "probably rocket science" and keep chirping in from behind not allowing you to answer. I am a big guy in stature, and on many occasions I had to maintain my composure because I felt like picking that loud-mouth up by the neck, hoisting him up against a wall, and then shoving my boot down his throat to shut him up. But, I was always someone who kept my cool and I knew violence was not the answer.

I think I am slightly misunderstood here. I'm not rebelling against MY label, which is "autism", that I accept because it kind of almost works for me - it helped me process a lot of things and understand a lot of things, and I never have a problem accepting something wholeheartedly if it's the truth. But, what I do have a problem with is people trying to stick superfluous labels onto me to make things easier for themselves. That doesn't work for me. And, it's all because they just can't figure me out easily like they do other people, and so to save themselves the trouble, they say just stick a label on me, any label, so it gives them a good enough reason not to bother. That really doesn't cut it for me. If there is one thing I can't stand, and maybe it's because I'm an extremely analytical/scientific person, are people who "shape" data or ignore some data in order to fit their interpretations. You can't throw away evidence simply because it doesn't fit your theory, and you can't make up evidence to prove your theory either. That doesn't work for me, never has, never will.

And, I know, people say, well just screw them, screw their opinions. It's not so easy. The misinterpretation of evidence has sent innocent people to jail already, hell, even to the electric chair. It's a dangerous game that can ruin lives, it's not something you can just forget about. Yes, I can be as forgiving and as understanding as I want, but there are some things in my life for example, that I know have changed irreversibly. Those scars I will bear forever, no matter how happy or successful I ever become again. Those stripes are something I will have to carry with me for the rest of my life.

Furthermore, I am a 0.3% minority in the human race. Taking a stand only makes you isolate yourself. I've tried that. If you take a stand, they are so thick-skinned, they don't even notice it. They just think you're being full of BS, or they just wonder what got into you, and relegate you to more "crazy". You make it worse. If I get bold, they cut me out, as simple as that. They are at a 99.7% advantage, they sure as hell don't need me and my stands I'm trying to take for myself, they just show me the door and say "Hey, if you don't like it, there's the door!" What am I going to do, stay isolated and alone for the rest of my life? No person is an island, trust me, I've tried that.