I just want to thank all of you for your ideas and comments. It's helpful to know, somehow, that others have wrestled with this...although at the same time, I don't want others to have this same experience because I know how frustrating it is, so you all have my sympathy! I have brought things in to the therapist in written form in the past, but I've been trying not to do that this time. I think it is more cathartic to speak and I'm trying to figure out how to do that. But I'm still stuck. I appreciate your ideas and suggestions though. Maybe I can talk to the counselor about the problems with speaking; maybe he will have more ideas. It is so hard. He has been very patient and understanding about it, but I am not. The flashbacks have been so constant and vivid, especially the last few weeks, and I don't want to be alone with them in my mind, and yet I can't say them either. It's awkward. Anyway, thanks to all of you for listening and sharing your thoughts. I'm grateful to you.

Take care,
ErinBear