was told 20 years ago I was bipolar while being treated for depression , but two years ago after a trumatic event at work and turning to ad's I wound up inpatient and accepted taking meds,, I still don't believe my dx but my pdoc is 100% certain my first documented mania was at 55 during the inpatient..during my earlier years I was "like a ping pong ball in a hurricane" I guess hypo .. during my religious days I truly believed I was God's gift to mankind.. was so depressed at one point attempted suicide,, guess I have been this way a long time..