hi percygirl
i can understand your devastation. you are being treated very poorly by someone who claims to love you. i can see that you can see both sides of this, that this isnt the proper way to be treated in a relationship but because you love him it is difficult to face the idea of separating. but imagine going thru these feelings every time he is unhappy with an argument the two of you have. maybe putting together a pro/con list on what you are getting out of the relationship and what it is costing you is worth a go. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome