I'm sorry your in a mess. I hope you can salvage your marriage.

This is the exact reason I chart my moods and if I'm acting a tad "off" my husband checks to see if I am indeed charting ( another reason I just use pen and paper). If I am not he will bring it to my attention.

Every single day I do a self check and make sure all my fluids are topped off,so to speak.

My Husband will step in and bring to my attention if I am looking like I am heading towards possible trouble. Plus I see my T weekly.

I hope your marriage can be mended and you can find ways to keep yourself in check and get help before you come off the rails in the future.