Hello Yismymindblank12: I read your post with interest. I'm an aging transgender person (MtF). However, I never transitioned & have lived a more-or-less normal male life (unfortunately.) So I can't really respond to your questions. There are certainly transsexual women out there who have had GRS surgery who could respond to your questions. They are on YouTube, on the various transgender websites & probably here on PC as well, I would presume.

With regard to the idea of wanting to be a girl... there is a thought I would like to offer you. Many years ago I read, in a magazine for writers, the statement that a writer writes because s/he has to... because, to not write, would be a denial of the very essence of who s/he is. Personally, I believe something similar could be said for transition. A person transitions because s/he must.. because to not do so would be a denial of the very essence of who s/he is. So, from that perspective questions about how sex will feel, or if it will be more pleasurable or painful, are to some extent beside the point. It is what it is. What is relevant is that in order to continue to live, I have to do this. (Of course, I haven't done it. So what does that say about me? I don't know.) Perhaps this is just idealistic claptrap, on my part. But it's how I view transition & I wanted to share my thoughts with you. My best wishes to you as you proceed. I am envious...