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Originally Posted by licketysplit
Hi Monkeybrains. I remember a while back you were completely manic, so yeah...please talk to a psychiatrist about those symptoms. It could be bipolar or something else, but it was off the hook. Maybe print that thread and give it to a pdoc and your therapist?
I hope you find a way to share more of your experiences with your therapist. And be careful, too, so that you can handle the emotional fallout post session. If you can swing it, schedule two a week until you get through it. If I remember correctly, you gave her something in writing and it was very hard on you. (If I've got that wrong, I'm sorry, but your posts really stood out for me.)
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Ur right when I have her my book I was a wee but off hinged so to speak for a bit. It was nerve wrecking and I felt so awful. It was weeks before I got it back and I don't remember exactly why. I've been going once every other week but my insurance will cover once a week now so I'm to tell her next week.
I'm not sure what I'm more uneasy about
: emotional fallout or just opening up. I've always had to keep to myself cuz there was no one to tell other than hospital social workers and I wasn't about to tell them squat. Ive always felt that it's all my burden to carry and no one else should know. A lot of it makes me feel so awful. Y was I so weak? Y me? Y was I so impulsive? Y did I let that happen? These r the questions I always have running through my head. It's y I wake every night multiple times, it's y I'm awake now.
If bipolar is genetic then that's can't be it since no one in my family is bipolar. Pdoc thought bipolar first time we met but then did a hmmmm. I dunno. I've got to find a dr to do a medical evaluation and see if anything is medically wrong and then probably a psych evaluation. I jus need to get this under control so i don't lose my job.