Hi, I too was in the hospital and it did take over 6 months for me to finally start feeling better. I was the same as you, I isolated myself and found it absolutely impossible to smile or have fun. I went through a very rough period and it took time to get over it. For me, I had to get my meds balanced out, build a good foundation with my therapist and connect with my support network. All that takes time. Hang in there and keep trying to move forward.