Usually I never reach out to T in between sessions, but I did so two weeks ago and had a crisis intervention for my suicidal thoughts. I've been a bit better afterwards and saw her again last Friday.
But over the last 2-3 I've been slipping down again... I don't want to fall apart, I don't want to be so needy, I don't want to bother her, I don't want to disappoint her... but I'm not sure how long I can go on like this without her help....